A Pleasing Decision How to Make?

I foresee that there would be rejection on the decision that I made. Are we here to please everybody? Sometimes it is hard to make a decision that would make everyone happy. How to take a balance then?

Sigh! Each and every individual has his own mentality and pre-supposition. To make things worse, everyone would think that he/she is doing the right thing and others are all wrong. They would try to change your mind with their own mentality hopefully that you will then listen to what he/she said. If not, disobedience would come in as an accusation to you.

If I am still who I was, certainly I wouldnt care much on what other people are saying. No doubt, I was a very stubborn person who didnt get influenced easily. In fact, I am still stubborn but not as serious as I was previously. I would choose to listen to opinions around to evaluate if it is benefiting me before I made decision. However, I really hope that the decisions been made would get supported by the ones that I love.

Things are getting tougher as we grow up. There are more things that we need to decide on, more problems that need to be dealt with. People are getting more complicated and difficult to deal with as well. The pressures that have been poured upon are getting more unbearable. The expectation from the people around is suffocating.

Anyhow, this is the sinful world that we are living in. What do you expect?

How deep the Father's love for us

How deep the Father's love for us
How vast beyond all measure
That He would give His only Son
To make a wretch His treasure

How great the pain of searing loss
The Father turns His face away
As wounds which mar the Chosen One
Bring many sons to glory

Behold the Man upon a cross
My guilt upon His shoulders
Ashamed, I hear my mocking voice
Call out among the scoffers

It was my sin that held Him there
Until it was accomplished
His dying breath has brought me life
I know that it is finished

I will not boast in anything
No gifts, no powr's, no wisdom
But I will boast in Jesus Christ
His death and resurrection

Why should I gain from His reward?
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom

Random thoughts

There will be a lot of changes next year. Change means uncertainty. Uncertainty means risk-taking. Who likes changes? Fortunately, I don't really resist changes. At least it gives me a new platform to learn something that I am not aware on. And I believe that by God's grace we are able to go through all the difficulties that we will be facing. Hahaaa... is that why i keep changing job? It also means that I get bored very easily... no endurance at all. no good, no good.

Elisabeth Elliot

Read through her blog. She is one of the faithful servants of God who involves herself in woman ministry. Great woman who has gone through a lot.
And signed up for her daily devotional material too!!

Kids Say The Darndest Things

Hmm... I think i am not gifted in children ministry, at least for this moment. The more I teach them the more I doubt if they understand what I taught. It became so clear to me that children ministry is not the one that I would involve myself in especially when my church is organising a children holiday camp this coming Wed-Sat. I totally dont feel interested in teaching them a lesson not to mention to teach them singing or dancing. But thank God that most of the women in my church loves this ministry and willing to involve themselves, really salute them.

Apart from that, this morning I was in charge of children sunday school. It was such an accomplishment to myself that the kids were not really out of control. Why I say so? It is because we only have one class of sunday school due to the number of kids attending sunday school. Apparently, this morning has 11 of them and the age range is from 3 to 11. Hellooo... I am out of idea how to teach them. From the age where they dont understand a single thing that you said, let alone responding to you, to the age when they have their own judgement and mindset. To make things worse, there were actually two little sisters who like to scream on top of their voice out of nothing, 3 brothers who can't even sit on their chairs for more than a second, a girl who talks and sing in a very loud voice and another girl who likes to gossip and talks bad things about other kids. How to teach? how to teach? And we have only 2 teachers to help out. Hmm... I think should consider letting the younger kids do colouring while conducting bible story telling, writing bible verses, singing and crafting to the older kids. At least the age gap is not that huge.

Anyway, back to the sunday school this morning, there was actually one kid who just start crying out of sudden. No one touch her, no one do anything to her at all. It scared me. Asked her what happened, she doesn't even tell ( can't blame, she is only 3). But later the day, I approached her mom to see what happened only to understand that maybe there was someone taking away her things and she did not know how to express, so she just cried. Interesting! but sweating! In another incident, another girl started to cry softly and keep saying 'I dont want, i dont want!". I asked her what she didn't want and she just kept repeating herself. Apart from that, the rest of them were quite co-operative other than one of them accidentally spilled glue over the floor. The accomplishment is that the three brothers managed to behave themselves throughout the service.

By God's grace, although I am not gifted to teach a big group of kids but personally i love to talk to kids especially those in the range of four to six years old when they started to ask extraordinary questions that you might not be able to answer. I believe that we, adults, have things which we can learn from kids too. And I would definitely love to have our own kids if God graciously gives us, not now, but in God's timing.

Throwing Rubbish...

... out of the car window is no good.
Yesterday on the way back home, i saw a kid actually throwing out a chocolate wrapper from the side window. Initially i wanted to honk her but then i resisted. This act of throwing shows us how educated our people are and the Malaysian level of morality.
Imagine a 3-4 years old kid know how to throw rubbish out of a car window. Who is the one who taught them to do so? Maybe parents have lame excuse that the kids learnt from others. But who is responsible to teach their own kids this simple rule? It is really 'sampah masyarakat' not to even have a little bit of consideration.
It is just a simple logical thinking that we shouldnt throw rubbish anywhere we want. If we throw, somebody has to pick it up. Those wrappers or bottles are not degradable. Thus, it will exist until somebody else picking it up to be thrown into rubbish bin.
So... be considerate and be responsible!

I am so frustrated....

...over the blog template. I have tried the whole morning but couldnt manage to change the template of my blog. I dont know what is the problem! I think I'll be laughed at if i tell people that I studied computer science previously and i did web page design as well. Not only that, but I actually got high scores for those subjects.
I once heard from a lecturer that theory is so different from practical. Although the lecturer knows how to teach in theory but practically he does not know the actual thing that he has been telling his students about... tsk tsk tsk. But I think the same concept applied to me too =P
I think I got to get help from my personal tutor, MohHerng, again on this template thingy!
Help me...

Blackout Hour

The blackout hour last night gave me a moment to think through something so true about human nature. It was out of sudden that the area that I live in had a total darkness... It was the loss of electricity.

The first thing that popped up in my mind is...oh, dear! I am going to sleep soon. How am I going to sleep without electricity? I had no choice but to climb up my bed with the help of the light on my mobile.

During the hour of blackout, i was wondering how our grandpa and grandma and even our great grandparents would survive without electricity? How warm it would be in the afternoon without the comfort of air-cond or fan? How inconvenient it would be without light at night? They would only rely on the small light from candles or oil burner to bright up the place. Then, i started to imagine that the weather should be colder many years ago compared with the current weather. Why the world is getting warmer and warmer, and causes all this global warming? It is due to the 'good deeds' of human beings as well. When the weather was not that warm, we tried to be clever by inventing air-cond and electricity for the convenience of people, however, until this stage in time, we have become the slave to our own invention. We are not able to survive without electricity and air-cond. Sigh!

Beside that, I was wondering it must had been very difficult for Jesus and His disciples when they walked around to evangelise. Not only that, maybe they had to walk under the very hot sun for the whole day as well. Hmmm... so far when I read bible I never consider the weather when they walked from one place to the other, may it be hot? may it be cold?

Maybe... It is me who just took things for granted!

Krispy Kreme is coming to town

Woohoo... Just read from newspaper today that Berjaya group has decided to open Krispy Kreme stores in Malaysia. They have already signed the franchising agreement with Krispy Kreme Doughnuts Co. and are planning to open 20 stores throughout Malaysia. The sad thing is they will started off in KL and Klang Valley area first before expanding to other major cities. So, all those KL people will be able to taste this yummy doughnuts by next year but Penangites, I think we will need to wait for another few years. *sob*
Krispy Kreme started off the business since 1937 and their signature doughnut would be the Original Glazed, best eaten when it is hot off the line



Beside that, they also offer different flavours to suit all sorts of doughnuts-lover. It is so mouth-watering! Cant wait for it to come soon!!!

Finding memories on my teenage years

Reading through the diary that I used to write gave me a lot of memories both sweet and bad. It was two days ago that I accidentally found my diary kept inside the lowest drawer in my wardrobe. In fact I couldn't remember any single thing I wrote in my diary so I decided to read through again.
Writing diary was the habit since i was 16 but however this habit had stopped during my college time. Most of my entries were on friends and BGR. It would be either on who I met or what I had done with my friends. Some would include the arguments that I had with friends and surely it included the elements of pride and jealousy.
It gave me a moment to reflect back how was I as a teenager and what would be the things in the mind of teenagers. Although time might have changed and the interest of teenagers nowadays are different from my time, but I guess it helps abit as how I should talk to teenagers in church and what I should expect from them. It helps also to evaluate whether we have put too much pressure on what they are doing and what they shouldnt be doing as teenagers.
There was at one point that I thought I was so childish previously but it was those experiences that I have which shapes me to be the person that I am right now. So, no regret on my past and strive hard to be a better person in the future.

Thought of Life II

Remembered two months ago I blogged on the condition of Alex Teoh and how he has been so encouraging to us around him although he was lying on his bed. As time goes by, I thank God that he has become stronger and stronger right now. He started to be able to get himself into wheelchair and he started to come to church for service with some help from bros & sis for transportation. Alex had discharged from Mount Miriam Hospital I think a week ago and now he can even do some basic chores for himself. We thank God that although for the moment he is not able to walk by himself but yet we can see his determination to try his best so that he gets stronger as days past by. The spirit of never give up is something that we can learn from him. He also asked our fellowship to go to his house and we did that for last week's young adult fellowship when we concluded the book of Romans. I think it would be more convenient for him to have fellowship with us at his home than to go to Church.
It shows such a big contradiction as I looked at him and the other brother who is fit and healthy physically but unwilling to stand up after the fall spiritually. It is such a sad thing to see him coming to church without joy and peace in his heart. The face shows as if everyone is owing him hundred million dollars and as if we are all his enemy. In fact, I cannot understand what this brother is thinking about and what he wanted to show us with this attitude in church. Can you tell me? To him, I would say that what we can do is to continue to pray for him and to show our love to him while waiting for his return to have fellowship with us. Everyone will have good and bad times but we should be able to stand up once again after we fell to the ground. A few of us have been asking him to come back to the fellowship once again and his reply is always no, I am already dead! This is the total give up in life and even enjoying himself in sins. I can see that this is a totally different story between him and alex. Maybe he is thinking that he is right and we are all wrong... I do not know. But do really hope that he will come back to Christ once again.
God, have mercy on us!

Learning to love from "Come Back, Barbara!"

Updates for the past two weeks

I have been going out almost every night for the past two weeks. Here are the updates:
23/ 7 - Went for prayer meeting
24/ 7 - Had buffet dinner at Tao restaurant with MH and Edward in Auto City
25/ 7 - Young Adult Fellowship in Church
26/ 7 - Watched Red Cliff in Queensbay with MingSheng, MH, Moses and Edward (I dont understand the story line, Arrrggghhh.)
27/ 7 - Dinner out with my family
28/7 - Attended college Odyssey Nite
29/7 - Meeting college friend, Zenas, who came back from China at Starbucks
30/7 - Prayer meeting in church
31/7 - Finally the only one night that stayed at home instead of attending meeting in Joseph's house.
1/8 - Young Adult Fellowship in Alex's house
2/8 - Dinner at Bali Hai with MH's family
3/8 - Captain ball and dinner out nearby youth park
AND finally 4/8 - Ermm...not sure yet. Maybe going to buy sport shoes for myself???